It’s been almost a year since I have started working officially. The pay isn’t much, job satisfaction is only so-so.
I hardly see daylight.
I hardly see my friends.
I hardly get to do anything really, except to go to work, and go back from work.
It didn’t take me long to remember all of that nagging I’ve had from teachers and parents about not being in such a hurry to grow up. “You’ll miss your student life, you’ll see!”
I started missing it the day it ended really. But everyday I travel to work, is another sharp reminder that that life is long gone. I realised one day I sat and talked with Kas. It’s been more than 6 years since we graduated from highschool. (!!)
Ever since I’ve started working though, the one thing that I have missed apart from being a student, is to simply write for the sake of writing.
Not because I’m meeting a deadline. Not because someone told me to do so. But to just write because I felt like it.
Blogging was supposed to be that outlet. But really…blogging is very much a different medium compared to the paper and pen medium. Gone were the days when I used to fill my journal. Or when I used scribble a silly line or two to form a rhythmic stanza.
I miss that to the very core.
But everything just saps at my strength these days, and all I could afford to do is to kick back and watch TV. I regret the days when I used to make fun of my parents for being so lifeless. And yet, here I am….doing the exact same thing.
I miss writing for the heck of it.
I should start soon…before I lose my sanity.