My Unscripted Life

~kaeisace

It’s a beautiful world out there…
If only I could see,
Without the blurriness that be,
That has haunted me since.
A Silicone goddess visits me.
They are clear and curved,
much like the ones that adorn
buxom women,
but gives clarity instead
of the obscurity of ample bosoms.
It arches around my eye sockets.
Locking it in a prison
That threatens to hurt and maim it.
A cruel joke
That’s what it is.
Blood for definition.
Tears in exchange for a face
that is unhampered by metal, plastic and glass.
The price of beauty
is paid in blood and tears.

p/s- eye infection is not going away.

~kaeisace

It’s a beautiful world out there…
If only I could see,
Without the blurriness that be,
That has haunted me since.
A Silicone goddess visits me.
They are clear and curved,
much like the ones that adorn
buxom women,
but gives clarity instead
of the obscurity of ample bosoms.
It arches around my eye sockets.
Locking it in a prison
That threatens to hurt and maim it.
A cruel joke
That’s what it is.
Blood for definition.
Tears in exchange for a face
that is unhampered by metal, plastic and glass.
The price of beauty
is paid in blood and tears.

p/s- eye infection is not going away.

List of things to do in Ramadhan Month:

1. Scout for deliciously creamy Tepung Pelita
2. Smell for buttery curry puff with savoury chicken filling
3. Ask around for the best soya bean drink and tau fu fah
4. Ingat….baca niat puasa!
5. Control temper….never mind if the lecturer is being super slow.
6. Apologize for being extra testy…..(warning, empty stomache may cause snappy comments)
7. Set up pelita ayam for first raya at new house.
8. Dance around the pelita ayam.
9. Find sparklers, so that childhood memories could be relived.
10. Repeat, in that order

List of things to do in Ramadhan Month:

1. Scout for deliciously creamy Tepung Pelita
2. Smell for buttery curry puff with savoury chicken filling
3. Ask around for the best soya bean drink and tau fu fah
4. Ingat….baca niat puasa!
5. Control temper….never mind if the lecturer is being super slow.
6. Apologize for being extra testy…..(warning, empty stomache may cause snappy comments)
7. Set up pelita ayam for first raya at new house.
8. Dance around the pelita ayam.
9. Find sparklers, so that childhood memories could be relived.
10. Repeat, in that order

I love the moments in between. That moment before the total chaos and utter dejection. That calm before the storm. It isn’t always there, but when it comes, I relish the taste of it. It is in those moments that I find myself, and breathe.

It’s that moment when I am on the bus on the way to a major presentation.

That moment before I get out from the car.

That moment I before I enter the house.

That moment when I pick up the pen and about to tick my answer.

Moments when he reaches for my hand and I know what he is about to do.

Moments when I am on the staircase, about to step to the unknown.

It is something that I can’t truly explain in words. You’ve got to listen for it, wait for it. It’s there. Moments in between where you suddenly find yourself.

And then you know…you know why you are there in the first place.

It’s the greatest feeling…even if it’s only for awhile.

I love the moments in between. That moment before the total chaos and utter dejection. That calm before the storm. It isn’t always there, but when it comes, I relish the taste of it. It is in those moments that I find myself, and breathe.

It’s that moment when I am on the bus on the way to a major presentation.

That moment before I get out from the car.

That moment I before I enter the house.

That moment when I pick up the pen and about to tick my answer.

Moments when he reaches for my hand and I know what he is about to do.

Moments when I am on the staircase, about to step to the unknown.

It is something that I can’t truly explain in words. You’ve got to listen for it, wait for it. It’s there. Moments in between where you suddenly find yourself.

And then you know…you know why you are there in the first place.

It’s the greatest feeling…even if it’s only for awhile.

The laundry from my trip to Singapore is still in the washing machine. Assignments are beckoning me. But I just couldn’t resist posting some photos of the wedding. More will come soon! And congratulations to the newly weds! Wynne and Winfield, you guys are just too cute!

The laundry from my trip to Singapore is still in the washing machine. Assignments are beckoning me. But I just couldn’t resist posting some photos of the wedding. More will come soon! And congratulations to the newly weds! Wynne and Winfield, you guys are just too cute!

Amid my busy and hectic schedule, at the back of my mind, I am looking forward to one of the biggest event in the year for our family!

Yes, it is the second wedding among the cousins, and one that promises to be a spectacular one. Because the guy who is getting married is none other than resident funny man, Winfield.

For those who are not fully acquainted with our family, Winfield is my mom’s sister’s only child. Aunty Agatha or more popularly known as Sa Ee. (third aunty right?)

It’s no secret, Winfield happens to be everyone’s favourite cousin. He makes you laugh, able to talk and talk and talk till the cows come home, and have the ability to remember useless factoids. (I tried to remember one of them, but unlike him, I don’t remember one!)

It was also no secret that there were members of the family that was worried that he wouldn’t be able to get a girlfriend, because according to an undisclosed source, he blushes furiously when he’s near a girl, and become uncharacteristically shy. (Let’s hope he will let me in the wedding hall after this!)

But he did meet someone. And that someone was introduced to the family as Wynne. Everyone of course was struck by the fact that their names was so similar. Anyway, Wynne and Winfield was always seen together after that. It was like they were joined at the hip. Not many people were that surprised then when they finally announced their wedding plans.

So, a short trip down memory lane is due. I’m not going to point out the gangly girl that was me once, so let’s just try and spot Winfield. He’s the chubby boy wearing too large glasses. Other family members who reads this post will cringe at their old-fashioned hair and much too geeky smiles. But we were full from too much rich Christmas (or was it Chinese New Year) food by now, and never really paid attention to our poses.

So this is the typical Winfield pose. Relaxed, and oblivious to the fact that he looks like a large dumpling. Wynne already has a tough time controlling this diet I understand. Hehe!

A wedding is always a happy occasion. More so with our family, whom have had to deal with a big blow when Grandma passed away. It’s a small comfort that at least she has met Wynne, and in typical grandma fashion, has once quipped “So, you’re going to marry her?” And so he will. Welcome to the family Wynne! It isn’t luck that I wish for this happy happy couple, but instead a hope and prayer that they will stay just that; happy.

Amid my busy and hectic schedule, at the back of my mind, I am looking forward to one of the biggest event in the year for our family!

Yes, it is the second wedding among the cousins, and one that promises to be a spectacular one. Because the guy who is getting married is none other than resident funny man, Winfield.

For those who are not fully acquainted with our family, Winfield is my mom’s sister’s only child. Aunty Agatha or more popularly known as Sa Ee. (third aunty right?)

It’s no secret, Winfield happens to be everyone’s favourite cousin. He makes you laugh, able to talk and talk and talk till the cows come home, and have the ability to remember useless factoids. (I tried to remember one of them, but unlike him, I don’t remember one!)

It was also no secret that there were members of the family that was worried that he wouldn’t be able to get a girlfriend, because according to an undisclosed source, he blushes furiously when he’s near a girl, and become uncharacteristically shy. (Let’s hope he will let me in the wedding hall after this!)

But he did meet someone. And that someone was introduced to the family as Wynne. Everyone of course was struck by the fact that their names was so similar. Anyway, Wynne and Winfield was always seen together after that. It was like they were joined at the hip. Not many people were that surprised then when they finally announced their wedding plans.

So, a short trip down memory lane is due. I’m not going to point out the gangly girl that was me once, so let’s just try and spot Winfield. He’s the chubby boy wearing too large glasses. Other family members who reads this post will cringe at their old-fashioned hair and much too geeky smiles. But we were full from too much rich Christmas (or was it Chinese New Year) food by now, and never really paid attention to our poses.

So this is the typical Winfield pose. Relaxed, and oblivious to the fact that he looks like a large dumpling. Wynne already has a tough time controlling this diet I understand. Hehe!

A wedding is always a happy occasion. More so with our family, whom have had to deal with a big blow when Grandma passed away. It’s a small comfort that at least she has met Wynne, and in typical grandma fashion, has once quipped “So, you’re going to marry her?” And so he will. Welcome to the family Wynne! It isn’t luck that I wish for this happy happy couple, but instead a hope and prayer that they will stay just that; happy.