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Archive for June, 2005

June 21st, 2005

Independence Day??


It’s official! Town councils all over Malaysia are all geared up for the Merdeka celebrations and plans are already on the way to make this year’s Independence Day parade and festivities a success. I know, what’s the big deal right? So the government’s wasting more money after building countless flyovers, road expansions and failed anti-smoking campaigns. “What is the damn point?” some of you say.

I was in school one day, when my General Paper teacher opened up a topic for free discussion. She asked this, “What is the significance of celebrating Hari Merdeka?” Almost immediately, this rather annoying who sits behind me, said in an undertone so only me and my friend sitting next to me could hear her, “There is no reason to celebrate it. It’s a waste of money. I think we were better off being colonised by the British. Things are worse now then it was then.”

That comment made me and my friend Kas drop our jaws almost involuntarily, and we stared at her for a good minute, trying very hard not to clobber her in the head. (Not a very nice thing to do when you are supposed to be 19) I couldn’t give an answer then that could truly justify such an insult, and so I will say it now.

Why? Why celebrate Merdeka? Why not? People died to give us independence. People suffered as they stood their ground. Although our country were given independence rather peacefully, events that led up to it was certainly not. I am truly dumbfounded that there are people out there who stay in this country, benefited from it, and was educated in it, could say and even think such a thing. Truly they haven’t been paying attention during history class. Or was it beneath them to understand it’s significance.

Merdeka is NOT just the parade you see passing by. It is not the heart warming advertisements you see on television. It is also not the decorations and banners that are strewn across the town. Merdeka (Independence) is simply, to me anyway looking outside and seeing people walking by without a care in their mind. It’s being able to walk into a grocery shop and buy my favourite chocolate bar. It’s looking around my classroom, and laughing at my friend Nakulan hitting on Sheau Wei. Words can’t begin to describe to me how proud of I am of my country. It saddens me that there are people out there, youths in particular who are so adamant that this country is going to the dogs, and take everything for granted.

Yes, we do have problems. Our local transportation is nothing to brag about. The pipes are always bursting. The garbage management is horrendous, and it takes two hours for the police to come on a distress call. But you also have to remember, that in less than 50 years, we’ve achieved more than what the First World countries have done in the same space of time. Give us a little more time. Don’t put your own country down. Have a little faith. And hell yeah, I say, we do have reasons to celebrate Hari Merdeka. About 26 million of them. (The number of Malaysian citizens – last time I checked)Posted by Hello

June 21st, 2005

Independence Day??


It’s official! Town councils all over Malaysia are all geared up for the Merdeka celebrations and plans are already on the way to make this year’s Independence Day parade and festivities a success. I know, what’s the big deal right? So the government’s wasting more money after building countless flyovers, road expansions and failed anti-smoking campaigns. “What is the damn point?” some of you say.

I was in school one day, when my General Paper teacher opened up a topic for free discussion. She asked this, “What is the significance of celebrating Hari Merdeka?” Almost immediately, this rather annoying who sits behind me, said in an undertone so only me and my friend sitting next to me could hear her, “There is no reason to celebrate it. It’s a waste of money. I think we were better off being colonised by the British. Things are worse now then it was then.”

That comment made me and my friend Kas drop our jaws almost involuntarily, and we stared at her for a good minute, trying very hard not to clobber her in the head. (Not a very nice thing to do when you are supposed to be 19) I couldn’t give an answer then that could truly justify such an insult, and so I will say it now.

Why? Why celebrate Merdeka? Why not? People died to give us independence. People suffered as they stood their ground. Although our country were given independence rather peacefully, events that led up to it was certainly not. I am truly dumbfounded that there are people out there who stay in this country, benefited from it, and was educated in it, could say and even think such a thing. Truly they haven’t been paying attention during history class. Or was it beneath them to understand it’s significance.

Merdeka is NOT just the parade you see passing by. It is not the heart warming advertisements you see on television. It is also not the decorations and banners that are strewn across the town. Merdeka (Independence) is simply, to me anyway looking outside and seeing people walking by without a care in their mind. It’s being able to walk into a grocery shop and buy my favourite chocolate bar. It’s looking around my classroom, and laughing at my friend Nakulan hitting on Sheau Wei. Words can’t begin to describe to me how proud of I am of my country. It saddens me that there are people out there, youths in particular who are so adamant that this country is going to the dogs, and take everything for granted.

Yes, we do have problems. Our local transportation is nothing to brag about. The pipes are always bursting. The garbage management is horrendous, and it takes two hours for the police to come on a distress call. But you also have to remember, that in less than 50 years, we’ve achieved more than what the First World countries have done in the same space of time. Give us a little more time. Don’t put your own country down. Have a little faith. And hell yeah, I say, we do have reasons to celebrate Hari Merdeka. About 26 million of them. (The number of Malaysian citizens – last time I checked)Posted by Hello

June 21st, 2005

Chocolate Addict!

Chocolates. Brown and sweet. Oozing with nougat and nuts and caramel. Round, square, in creamy bars and shaped like flowers. I have a serious addiction towards chocolate, and I cannot imagine living without it. I go mad without at least one chocolate fix in a week. My boyfriend had to physically stop me from getting into a 7 Eleven at one time to spend RM 10 on chocolates and onely chocolates. I take it like I would take a drug. The “High” that comes with it, and the exquisite taste fills me up literally blocks out everything else.

There’s a very sinful vibe to eating chocolates. I’d regret it later, much like regretting not studying for an exam, or picking that fight with my best friend. I could feel that nougat filling my thighs, and that caramel chipping away at the cavities in my teeth. Oh, I’d regret it all right. But I’d watch Jamie Oliver on the telly, whipping one hell of a chocolate mousse, and all rational thought goes out of my head, and like a zombie, my legs on castors I’d stride to the nearest 7 Eleven and buy bars or Snickers or Mars or Kit Kat. Disaster would strike when I don’t have enough money to buy my latest chocolate fix. All the change in my house would suddenly dissapear, and my mom caught me taking out a few dollars from her purse.

I need a chocolate. I can’t stand it! Posted by Hello

June 21st, 2005

Ge Ge’s birthday


The din reached an all time high,
As the satay man look at me and sighs.
The chubby boy beside me piles his plate,
His spectacle slips as more coal fills the grate.
I look at the gravy stain on my flowered jeans,
Mama scolds me and proceed to clean.
Sa Ee is laughing, I can see food – unchewed.
The chubby boy looks at me and says “I’m screwed!”
There’s Grandma, winning at blackjack,
My uncle the banker frowns and his shoulders go slack.
Little David won’t stop crying,
Wawa’s making funny faces – well, trying.
Yana sits like a princess, eats like a lady,
Her brother lurks, looking a little shady.
Ijam is making jokes,
Clemance pretends to laugh – Ijam’s stoked!
Aunt Pauline declines the steak,
says it’s more than what she should take.
Grandpa sits in a corner, observing.
He’s smiling inside, just glowing.
See, it’s his birthday.
But really, it’s the company he’s had today. Posted by Hello

June 21st, 2005

Chocolate Addict!

Chocolates. Brown and sweet. Oozing with nougat and nuts and caramel. Round, square, in creamy bars and shaped like flowers. I have a serious addiction towards chocolate, and I cannot imagine living without it. I go mad without at least one chocolate fix in a week. My boyfriend had to physically stop me from getting into a 7 Eleven at one time to spend RM 10 on chocolates and onely chocolates. I take it like I would take a drug. The “High” that comes with it, and the exquisite taste fills me up literally blocks out everything else.

There’s a very sinful vibe to eating chocolates. I’d regret it later, much like regretting not studying for an exam, or picking that fight with my best friend. I could feel that nougat filling my thighs, and that caramel chipping away at the cavities in my teeth. Oh, I’d regret it all right. But I’d watch Jamie Oliver on the telly, whipping one hell of a chocolate mousse, and all rational thought goes out of my head, and like a zombie, my legs on castors I’d stride to the nearest 7 Eleven and buy bars or Snickers or Mars or Kit Kat. Disaster would strike when I don’t have enough money to buy my latest chocolate fix. All the change in my house would suddenly dissapear, and my mom caught me taking out a few dollars from her purse.

I need a chocolate. I can’t stand it! Posted by Hello

June 21st, 2005

Ge Ge’s birthday


The din reached an all time high,
As the satay man look at me and sighs.
The chubby boy beside me piles his plate,
His spectacle slips as more coal fills the grate.
I look at the gravy stain on my flowered jeans,
Mama scolds me and proceed to clean.
Sa Ee is laughing, I can see food – unchewed.
The chubby boy looks at me and says “I’m screwed!”
There’s Grandma, winning at blackjack,
My uncle the banker frowns and his shoulders go slack.
Little David won’t stop crying,
Wawa’s making funny faces – well, trying.
Yana sits like a princess, eats like a lady,
Her brother lurks, looking a little shady.
Ijam is making jokes,
Clemance pretends to laugh – Ijam’s stoked!
Aunt Pauline declines the steak,
says it’s more than what she should take.
Grandpa sits in a corner, observing.
He’s smiling inside, just glowing.
See, it’s his birthday.
But really, it’s the company he’s had today. Posted by Hello

June 21st, 2005

Ge Ge’s birthday


The din reached an all time high,
As the satay man look at me and sighs.
The chubby boy beside me piles his plate,
His spectacle slips as more coal fills the grate.
I look at the gravy stain on my flowered jeans,
Mama scolds me and proceed to clean.
Sa Ee is laughing, I can see food – unchewed.
The chubby boy looks at me and says “I’m screwed!”
There’s Grandma, winning at blackjack,
My uncle the banker frowns and his shoulders go slack.
Little David won’t stop crying,
Wawa’s making funny faces – well, trying.
Yana sits like a princess, eats like a lady,
Her brother lurks, looking a little shady.
Ijam is making jokes,
Clemance pretends to laugh – Ijam’s stoked!
Aunt Pauline declines the steak,
says it’s more than what she should take.
Grandpa sits in a corner, observing.
He’s smiling inside, just glowing.
See, it’s his birthday.
But really, it’s the company he’s had today. Posted by Hello

June 21st, 2005

Ge Ge’s birthday


The din reached an all time high,
As the satay man look at me and sighs.
The chubby boy beside me piles his plate,
His spectacle slips as more coal fills the grate.
I look at the gravy stain on my flowered jeans,
Mama scolds me and proceed to clean.
Sa Ee is laughing, I can see food – unchewed.
The chubby boy looks at me and says “I’m screwed!”
There’s Grandma, winning at blackjack,
My uncle the banker frowns and his shoulders go slack.
Little David won’t stop crying,
Wawa’s making funny faces – well, trying.
Yana sits like a princess, eats like a lady,
Her brother lurks, looking a little shady.
Ijam is making jokes,
Clemance pretends to laugh – Ijam’s stoked!
Aunt Pauline declines the steak,
says it’s more than what she should take.
Grandpa sits in a corner, observing.
He’s smiling inside, just glowing.
See, it’s his birthday.
But really, it’s the company he’s had today. Posted by Hello

June 13th, 2005

Yeah Right!!

You know how they are ALWAYS potraying women desperate for comitment, for marriage, and just all around desperate. And then it was how women nag, how they whine, how hard up they are over romance. And I grew thinking that way, (influence from television and books) but as I became older and mastered the power of observance, I realize just how wrong all that is! It is the MEN who are all of the above.

It is the men who want to get married as fast as possible. It’s the men who demand comitment from the women. And hell yeah, they are the ones who are hard up for romance. When you think about it, all the sitcoms, movies and books are all written and created by men. It is after all a man’s world back there. All of it written from the point of view of a man, so what you see, is them potryaing women as the pain-in-the-butt.

Hah! So you don’t agree? Prove it!

June 13th, 2005

Waiting

Waiting…
for the post office to open
Waiting…
for my turn in McDonald’s
Waiting…
for the light to turn green
Waiting…
for the night to come
Waiting…
for the sun to rise
Waiting…
for him to call
Waiting…
for a message from her
Waiting…
for me turn
Waiting…
is it my turn?
Waiting…
for my big break
Waiting…
for loneliness to leave me alone.